My mum sadly passed away last Thursday after 10 years of this awful disease. She was 72. I’m not even sure why I’m posting maybe just to put things on paper. We have spent so long tending to mum, loving her, getting annoyed with her at times, and 100% did our very best in caring fir her until the end.
I was with her every day for the last week and would go home at night and my step dad would stay. She passed away at 4.15 in the morning and I missed her go.
Honestly I wanted it to be just my step dad with her alone but a part of me now feels guilt for leaving him alone and her despite him insisting I go and rest.
I’m now living in a bubble of what to do and although it was peaceful her final hours can’t get the images out my head of the discomfort she felt and the change in her the last week of her life.
I’m guessing this is normal stages of grief ?♀️I just want my energy back and to not miss her so much ?
I was with her every day for the last week and would go home at night and my step dad would stay. She passed away at 4.15 in the morning and I missed her go.
Honestly I wanted it to be just my step dad with her alone but a part of me now feels guilt for leaving him alone and her despite him insisting I go and rest.
I’m now living in a bubble of what to do and although it was peaceful her final hours can’t get the images out my head of the discomfort she felt and the change in her the last week of her life.
I’m guessing this is normal stages of grief ?♀️I just want my energy back and to not miss her so much ?