thankyou everyone for your thougts and good wishes.
Today I have been very tired, mum has been quite peacefull, last night wasnt too good, she seemed quite agitated at times and whatever I did didnt seem to help her. Today she slept a lot, an old family friend came over for most of the day which was lovely for me but she was quite upset seeing mum. Alice went with her father to see her other grandparents today, I'm glad she went as she needs some time away to reflect and de-stress, before she went I gave her a gold charm which mum was very fond of and a necklace to put it on, it is a little gold toy horse very pretty and sweet, she is wearing it on the necklace, this evening she was awarded a prize for excellence in archery, I was so proud to see her presented with her award and win some new equipment for the club, she looked tired and pale and I felt so proud of her for her achievements and for being such a special girl. I came home and mum had just woken, her breathing seems quite 'bubbly' I think she has some mucous in her throat which she cant shift, I propped her up and hopefully it will help her, I think I may sleep in my bed tonight as I'm so tired, its the room next to mums and I will set my alarm fore every two hours, I feel guilty but am so desperate for sleep and the girls will be home after school tomorrow and I need to be strong for them. I'm hoping mum has a good night tonight. J