Think the guilt monkey had a good night last night and decided to invade my sleep last night - woke up about 4 times with my heart thumping after having horrible dreams. Tried to sleep without taking any nytol, think I might need to make peace with the decision a bit more before the guilt monkey disappears and he probably never will 100%. You think you have made the right decision especially as I have read you have to consider a PWD and their needs, not their wants, but blimey its not as easy as you think.