Wow graduation day on monday and i never thought how upsetting it would be to not see my mum there being the proud parent!!
Due to mum not knowing who she is, who anyone is, where she is, doublely incontinent, unable to communicate, very angry all the time, unable to eat and walk she was unable to attend. In the last stages of this terrible disease!!
Everyones mum and dads were there taking photos and it was so lovely to see appart from me thinking the whole time i wish mum was here!
What got to me is when i was having my professional photo was people saying to me are you not going to have a family photo, well i wouldnt say a picture of myself, dad and my boyfriend was quite my 'family' portrait!!
I now dread every major event in my life as i will just have a constant reminder that my mum will never be able to share these experiences with me!!
The carer said to me 'oh it must have been hard not having your mum seeing you graduate on monday' at time time i wanted to cry im suprised i didnt i had to walk away very quickly saying yes it was very hard!!
Im struggling to cope again! I try to be strong but my mum has finally gone and is a body with know one inside!!
I miss her so much!!!!xxxx
Due to mum not knowing who she is, who anyone is, where she is, doublely incontinent, unable to communicate, very angry all the time, unable to eat and walk she was unable to attend. In the last stages of this terrible disease!!
Everyones mum and dads were there taking photos and it was so lovely to see appart from me thinking the whole time i wish mum was here!
What got to me is when i was having my professional photo was people saying to me are you not going to have a family photo, well i wouldnt say a picture of myself, dad and my boyfriend was quite my 'family' portrait!!
I now dread every major event in my life as i will just have a constant reminder that my mum will never be able to share these experiences with me!!
The carer said to me 'oh it must have been hard not having your mum seeing you graduate on monday' at time time i wanted to cry im suprised i didnt i had to walk away very quickly saying yes it was very hard!!
Im struggling to cope again! I try to be strong but my mum has finally gone and is a body with know one inside!!
I miss her so much!!!!xxxx