Hi all were do i start i am absolutely heart sluffed my grandad passed away on Monday aged 88 years he had dementia and has suffered on and off with his chest. I can never ever recall a time in my life that both him and my grandmother have not been a part of my life i lived next door to them all my life and im finding this so hard to deal with . We lost my grandmother 3 years come this April and at the time like everyone we said i wish they could of just gone together because it was so so painful seeing my grandad suffer through her not being there. But as time progressed my Grandad became his own individual person to us and needed our help love and support may i state that up until 10 weeks ago my Grandad lived alone and was totally fine,my mam and aunt took turns in his meal times and he alwys had company until he had a fall and was taken into hospital since then it has been a downhill spiral he was diagnozed with dementia and then whilst in hospital had a fall and broke is pelvis from then on he had a tough ride he could not walk much and needed nursing home care 24 hours. This last week as hit me like a tun of bricks i was in seeing him on Sunday night i always done the night time visits as my mam done the afternoon and my aunt done morning and tea time visits to feed him. He was so so confused Sunday night really on edge and kept saying my beutiful wife this we had never heared him say as since my grandmothers death he seemed to block her out of his memory when i say this i mean he was too hurt to talk over her. He seemed to be trying to tell me that something was wrong with his leg but i could not understand him that night i cuddled him told him i loved him very very much and left the next day my mam recived a phone call asking how quickly could she get down to the nursing home when we had arrived they said im sorry he has gone we were heartbroken we did not get the chance to say bye they said it was so so sudden and that they tried all they could but with no avail we always said that we did not want him to be brought back why put them through all the machines but for some reason they did but it did not work. We have now recived the course of death pnemonia im so so heartbroken and especially on a nite when its time to visit him i could run a mile i cant belive he died without his family around him and dont know if he has had a peacful death because i wont go into matters on this forum but he was not cared for very well at the home in certain aspects towards the end my brain is in a turmoil he was just like a father to me as mine left when i was 6 months old so ive known no different sorry for going on just really need to vent god bless you all josey