Dear Doreen, yes, the time before diagnoses is a nightmare, for both of you. The sufferer, trying desperately to hold on to normality, using every prop they can just to stay where they are and not drop another notch, desperate to be in control and not to let their loved ones down, oh boy is that hard! Then, theres the carer(s) seeing the decline, desperate too, to pretend it's not happening, this causes both to argue when things go wrong etc. etc. I hate it, oh how I hate this disease. Once a diagnoses is reached, regardless of whether the sufferer is aware or accepts it, we as carers know what the score is and we then have to face it as best we can. We are all different, but we are all only human and when our loved ones suffer in a way we can do nothing about, we are at our most vulnerable. Please never feel alone, you can say anything here, online or in a pm to us as fellow travellers, thats what tp is for, what/how ever you feel, someone will be able to empathise, we care, that's why we post on tp. Oh, and never worry about your pc skills, mine are abysmal too, you found us, that's the main thing! Thinking of you, love She.XX