I have not been on the site for ages and my daughter, Vikki, has already put a post on with our sad news. Jim lost his battle with alzheimers on July 3rd, aged 59. We never expected him to die so soon as Vikki has already said we had just fought to get him in a wonderful home and with funding in place too. We thought the home was excellent, for Jim, I feel he had been taken from the last place he had any familiarity with, his home, but we could no longer give him the care he needed without help. His death was very traumatic and tragically early and left the whole family stunned. Now 2months on I am trying to pick up the pieces and to start to build a new life, although after 5years of living with caring for Jim I feel as though my whole reason and focus for life has gone and I feel far to young to be a widow.
I have not returned to work yet as I don't feel ready yet to cope with the stress of teaching or facing an imminent OFSTED inspection but I will soon as I have to continue to work. For the moment I take each day as it comes, I am making Christmas cards which will be sold in aid of alz. research, I will continue to raise funds and be involved in trying to make people aware that this is a very cruel and in my case terminal illness which strikes young people not just the elderly.
I do have many regrets and feelings of guilt over the past 5years but we none of us know how we will cope when faced with tragic situations and I cannot have Jim back to change anything so life just has to go on somehow. We are a very close family and alzheimers made us closer, so for now my daughters and son in laws are getting me through this time along with my lovely friends. I know the sun will shine again one day but for now life seems dull and minus the spakle Jim had as a well man.
Thanks for all support I received from you all during my time of caring which although hard ended too soon. Carole
I have not returned to work yet as I don't feel ready yet to cope with the stress of teaching or facing an imminent OFSTED inspection but I will soon as I have to continue to work. For the moment I take each day as it comes, I am making Christmas cards which will be sold in aid of alz. research, I will continue to raise funds and be involved in trying to make people aware that this is a very cruel and in my case terminal illness which strikes young people not just the elderly.
I do have many regrets and feelings of guilt over the past 5years but we none of us know how we will cope when faced with tragic situations and I cannot have Jim back to change anything so life just has to go on somehow. We are a very close family and alzheimers made us closer, so for now my daughters and son in laws are getting me through this time along with my lovely friends. I know the sun will shine again one day but for now life seems dull and minus the spakle Jim had as a well man.
Thanks for all support I received from you all during my time of caring which although hard ended too soon. Carole