Been reading lots of posts on here for a while but don't often write anything. I have been caring for my lovely mum for several years now, she had Alzheimer's and vascular dementia. It wasn't always easy, often very frustrating but I did it because I loved her so much. Up to the last few months I managed on my own but since November have had carers three times a day. This meant I could spend more quality time with her, not just caring. We would often fall out about silly things, we still had a laugh together, she loved to go into town or out lunch and to the day center. It was often difficult because she also had copd, af, and arthritis so her mobility and breathing was very bad, and she went out in a wheelchair. I'm waffling now sorry. Mam was admitted to hospital on Saturday night with her breathing, she didn't respond very well to treatment. They were going to try a mask on her for a couple of days, but mam got agitated and kept pulling it off. Sadly she died this morning at 6 o'clock. She was asleep and struggled for a couple of breaths and stopped breathing. My son was with her, I wasn't. I was on my way home for a couple of hours, I didn't get home before I got the phone call. I feel so guilty that I left. The staff were very shocked as no one thought it would be so quick. I just feel shocked, numb, angry with myself and I miss her so so much. Love you mum, you are at peace now xxxx