I lost my Dad to dementia a year ago and we're a bit of buttoned up family in terms of feelings etc etc. My mother particularly frowns upon any sort of emotional expression about it. All through the end of Dad's life and the funeral, I never cried. I'd spent the 12 months leading up to Dad passing away dealing with hospitals and care homes and basically firefighting but I've felt worried at the time that I didn't feel enough emotion to cry at his funeral. I felt that made me a bit of an unfeeling cow and it worries me. I am currently under the care of a doctor for acute gastro problems which worsened since Dad died and I feel horrible pretty much all of the time. I feel it much be related to Dad leaving us but I don't know how to deal with it. I miss him terribly but I can't get it out of me. Has anyone else experienced this?