I have not posted since losing my wife on 13the March 2007 aged 57. Ruth developed Alzheimers at 44. I cared for her until she developed epelepsy in 2002 and my health deteriorated. She went into an EMI home in Feb 2003 unable to communicate effectively and not knowing me. I visited every day and fed her lunch and dinner. I did everything possible to ensure her care was good. I loved her so much, even though she was not the Ruth I married in 1969.
In May 2003 I was invited out to dinner with friends and a lady that had lost her husband in 2001 at the age of 47. He had bowel cancer and had been ill for many years. We enjoyed each others company and she listened to my constant talking about Ruth and her terrible suffering. She gave me a focus, someone to cry with and the strength to carry on caring and loving Ruth. Ann did not come between Ruth and I, and was not a threat to her, far from it. She would buy her flowers and presents but never met Ruth in person. One of my sons was comfortable with this relationship understanding how Ann was keeping me alive, as were close freinds and most relations. My youngest son was not.
Ann knew Ruth as well as anyone. She had listened to constantly talking about her, had watched every video and looked at every photo.
When Ruth passed away Ann asked if she could come to the funeral to pay her respects and to support me. She also offered to open up my house for those that did not wish to go to the crematorium. My son informed me he did not want Ann at the funeral. I felt I needed her and do not regret that decision. However, he saw Ann in his 'mums house' later which he tells me upset him. I accept this may have been the wrong decision and have appologised several times. But these decisions were taken at a time of extreme emotion.
As time passed we decided to sell our houses and buy one together, to start afresh and hopefully have a little happiness. We have been unable to sell due to the property slump. We do not want to be alone any longer. We decded to rent Ann's house and she would move to mine, which would remain for sale. When we can we will but a new house, and look forward to that. Of course my son and his partner will not accept this situation and the matter has come to a head. I have been accused of disrespecting Ruth's memory and compounding that by 'moving her in'. It is so difficult to get them to understand what 13 years of hell has been like for me and the fact that all I want is a little happiness. I am accussed of not considering his feelings always turning to my feelings. Of course my other son does not share his brothers view.
After all I have been through I remain stressed and unhappy. I have lost my lovely wife to this insideous disease and it is continuing to claim its victims.
I have offerd to go to Relate with my son, but have been advised I am not welcome to visit my new grandaughter Millie-Ruth, until the issue is resolved. The assumption is that if it is not I will never be permitted to see her. I have two other grandaughters by my eldest son.
I do not expect any answers from the forum but feel a desperate need to share with those that I feel may understand.
I believe Brucie that you may have been in a similar situation.
In May 2003 I was invited out to dinner with friends and a lady that had lost her husband in 2001 at the age of 47. He had bowel cancer and had been ill for many years. We enjoyed each others company and she listened to my constant talking about Ruth and her terrible suffering. She gave me a focus, someone to cry with and the strength to carry on caring and loving Ruth. Ann did not come between Ruth and I, and was not a threat to her, far from it. She would buy her flowers and presents but never met Ruth in person. One of my sons was comfortable with this relationship understanding how Ann was keeping me alive, as were close freinds and most relations. My youngest son was not.
Ann knew Ruth as well as anyone. She had listened to constantly talking about her, had watched every video and looked at every photo.
When Ruth passed away Ann asked if she could come to the funeral to pay her respects and to support me. She also offered to open up my house for those that did not wish to go to the crematorium. My son informed me he did not want Ann at the funeral. I felt I needed her and do not regret that decision. However, he saw Ann in his 'mums house' later which he tells me upset him. I accept this may have been the wrong decision and have appologised several times. But these decisions were taken at a time of extreme emotion.
As time passed we decided to sell our houses and buy one together, to start afresh and hopefully have a little happiness. We have been unable to sell due to the property slump. We do not want to be alone any longer. We decded to rent Ann's house and she would move to mine, which would remain for sale. When we can we will but a new house, and look forward to that. Of course my son and his partner will not accept this situation and the matter has come to a head. I have been accused of disrespecting Ruth's memory and compounding that by 'moving her in'. It is so difficult to get them to understand what 13 years of hell has been like for me and the fact that all I want is a little happiness. I am accussed of not considering his feelings always turning to my feelings. Of course my other son does not share his brothers view.
After all I have been through I remain stressed and unhappy. I have lost my lovely wife to this insideous disease and it is continuing to claim its victims.
I have offerd to go to Relate with my son, but have been advised I am not welcome to visit my new grandaughter Millie-Ruth, until the issue is resolved. The assumption is that if it is not I will never be permitted to see her. I have two other grandaughters by my eldest son.
I do not expect any answers from the forum but feel a desperate need to share with those that I feel may understand.
I believe Brucie that you may have been in a similar situation.