Haven't been on the site for ages - so much has changed but still seems the same - make sense ?? !!
Mum definately getting worse - in hospital for short period and still not any better even though home now. Continuously says how much she hates the house / not right / evil etc etc - so bad now that I have actually started looking for alternative accomodation. Family support also getting worse (if possible !!) - feel really resentful and have even taken to thinking how things will be when mum no longer here - really dont think I will ever forgive siblings for lack of support - we used to be so close (well I thought so anyway).
Feel constant guilt for absolutely everything ..... thinking of the future without mum / having power or attorney for her money (even though she does not seem to notice the difference ) / how I reacted last night to yet another episode...... every time I make meal mum eats couple of spoons of hers (after I have chopped it up ) - stores it in her mouth and I have to remove it with tissue / needs toilet / needs to be cleaned up - by which time I have no appetite - BRILLIANT FORM OF DIETING I CAN ASSURE YOU !!
Sorry for moaning BUT might as well get it off my chest 'cos probably wont sign on for another 6 months
Mum definately getting worse - in hospital for short period and still not any better even though home now. Continuously says how much she hates the house / not right / evil etc etc - so bad now that I have actually started looking for alternative accomodation. Family support also getting worse (if possible !!) - feel really resentful and have even taken to thinking how things will be when mum no longer here - really dont think I will ever forgive siblings for lack of support - we used to be so close (well I thought so anyway).
Feel constant guilt for absolutely everything ..... thinking of the future without mum / having power or attorney for her money (even though she does not seem to notice the difference ) / how I reacted last night to yet another episode...... every time I make meal mum eats couple of spoons of hers (after I have chopped it up ) - stores it in her mouth and I have to remove it with tissue / needs toilet / needs to be cleaned up - by which time I have no appetite - BRILLIANT FORM OF DIETING I CAN ASSURE YOU !!
Sorry for moaning BUT might as well get it off my chest 'cos probably wont sign on for another 6 months