My husband does not have lucid moments for any length of time, constantly babbles rubbish, calls and shouts for me as soon as I go out of the room, has virtually no mobility, and has hallucinations and delusions. I want to care for my husband at home, but feel I have no sense of self identity, and can feel my life slipping away. I feel dubious about letting friends sit with him so I have a break, as I would be worried that they might find it frightening when he is shouting and bawling. How do you keep a sense of self identity when you have no sane person to chat to? He had been in care for several months but I wasn't happy about that. I'm trying to arrange 1 day at day centre for him and know could always have respite for him. Any suggestions on how I can have a life that meaningful enough so that I can carry on caring for my husband at home as I know he had insight into his condition, and is very frightened at times. He has frontotemporal lobe dementia with Parkinsonian features.