So all weekend he's been stuck to me like glue, well he usually is when I'm not at work.
A friend of mine came to visit this morning - he glowered at her, got angry, even when she tried to include him in conversation and ask him questions. It's just uncomfortable when he gets like that, rude when people visit, annoyed because he's no longer the centre of my attention.
He's spent the day talking nonsense, hard as I try to understand what he's trying to say I just don't understand and what I do understand is the stuff that he constantly asks me and wants to talk about, such as where his money is and that he doesn't have any money.
He had a shower this evening and then spent most of the evening sitting and making comments throughout the TV programme I was trying to watch - not comments that anyone could understand, just negative stuff, complaining, wanting my attention.
He was complaining because I'd given him slippers to wear and he wanted his shoes. He goes upstairs and puts his shoes on, I tell him he doesn't need shoes on because it's bedtime. I come back downstairs to finish off the chores. He comes back downstairs with a pile of clothes from the bathroom that I'd put out ready for washing. I get cross with him for bringing the clothes down, he goes off angry, swearing at me under his breath.
Well I can see there's no point in being cross, I can see that if I gave him something to keep him occupied (but what?) then he wouldn't be getting annoyed because he doesn't have my attention, I can see that if I gave him my full attention then he would be happy ....... But I'm not a saint, I'm not a natural carer, I'm not cut out for this role at all. I don't know how it's going to end, when it's going to end, how long this will go on, how much worse it will get, how long I can keep going.....and when am I ever going to have a normal life again!!!
A friend of mine came to visit this morning - he glowered at her, got angry, even when she tried to include him in conversation and ask him questions. It's just uncomfortable when he gets like that, rude when people visit, annoyed because he's no longer the centre of my attention.
He's spent the day talking nonsense, hard as I try to understand what he's trying to say I just don't understand and what I do understand is the stuff that he constantly asks me and wants to talk about, such as where his money is and that he doesn't have any money.
He had a shower this evening and then spent most of the evening sitting and making comments throughout the TV programme I was trying to watch - not comments that anyone could understand, just negative stuff, complaining, wanting my attention.
He was complaining because I'd given him slippers to wear and he wanted his shoes. He goes upstairs and puts his shoes on, I tell him he doesn't need shoes on because it's bedtime. I come back downstairs to finish off the chores. He comes back downstairs with a pile of clothes from the bathroom that I'd put out ready for washing. I get cross with him for bringing the clothes down, he goes off angry, swearing at me under his breath.
Well I can see there's no point in being cross, I can see that if I gave him something to keep him occupied (but what?) then he wouldn't be getting annoyed because he doesn't have my attention, I can see that if I gave him my full attention then he would be happy ....... But I'm not a saint, I'm not a natural carer, I'm not cut out for this role at all. I don't know how it's going to end, when it's going to end, how long this will go on, how much worse it will get, how long I can keep going.....and when am I ever going to have a normal life again!!!