Hi. Some of you may know my story. I'm a single woman and only child who has been caring for my Mum at home ever since she was diagnosed with dementia six years ago. The last 18 months I have given up full time work to look after her pretty much all the time as her condition worsened. Five weeks ago she took another turn for the worse and has been in hospital ever since. The Consultant told me her condition was now at a point where she needed full time nursing care which could not be provided at home. So I've found her a really good care home that comes highly recommended by friends who have relatives there. And I know it's the right thing for her. But why, having returned home from settling her in for her first night there, do I feel utterly distraught? I feel like it's even worse than if she was dead.