my head at the moment is all over the place,i feel like im living in a daze dosnt seem real,i still feel guilt for when i lost it with mum shouting at her,99.9% of the time we had a great relationship so why am thinking of this and feeling bad i dont know!!
went up to the grave after work today and bumped into a lady i met a time before up there,she has lost her son to cancer,we end up talking for ages she seems to be going through the same as me,feel better for our chat
im still struggling to come to terms with it ,i dont think i ever will,im just going day to day
that sounds a nice idea lady a ,although i think we have snow forecasted here for the weekend