Hi again all,
been feeling really under presure the last few days like i cant cope with the kids the house is in a mad busy whirlwind state as there all playing together as our eldest is off school for the holidays. And i been feeling really tearful and down. I went upstairs before to hoover up and got my albums out and found me talking to mum. As soon as i saw her picture i was in tears, And keep replaying memories over and over. Its times like these i wish i could call her and talk as i feel like liife at the moment is Worry about money,Clean,Cook,Washing clothes and with all the bad weather we have hardly been able to ttake the kids out.We have a few days out planned though and to be honest i wish i had more work with the band i get paid the same wether i work or not bliss some of you may say but its driving me insane, Feel idol lazy and slothful. Im even thinking of taking on another job i seem happier when im busy. I do try to do things around the house when im bored paint repair them type of things But at the moment i feel like im in total despair find myself thinking of events that have not happened yet and looking to the dark side of things all the time. God what i wouldnt do to talk to someone proffesional.
Hope you're all well
Mark
been feeling really under presure the last few days like i cant cope with the kids the house is in a mad busy whirlwind state as there all playing together as our eldest is off school for the holidays. And i been feeling really tearful and down. I went upstairs before to hoover up and got my albums out and found me talking to mum. As soon as i saw her picture i was in tears, And keep replaying memories over and over. Its times like these i wish i could call her and talk as i feel like liife at the moment is Worry about money,Clean,Cook,Washing clothes and with all the bad weather we have hardly been able to ttake the kids out.We have a few days out planned though and to be honest i wish i had more work with the band i get paid the same wether i work or not bliss some of you may say but its driving me insane, Feel idol lazy and slothful. Im even thinking of taking on another job i seem happier when im busy. I do try to do things around the house when im bored paint repair them type of things But at the moment i feel like im in total despair find myself thinking of events that have not happened yet and looking to the dark side of things all the time. God what i wouldnt do to talk to someone proffesional.
Hope you're all well
Mark