My OH was diagnosed in February 2017, like you we were devastated and frightened for the future (still am), BUT, in some ways things are better and easier now than then (mainly changes and acceptance in me), and currently we are on holiday in Lanzarote and BOTH enjoying ourselves. Things are not the same, I have to get his meals, he can’t move round hotel on his own, steps are a nightmare , but we have walked loads, swam, taken trips down memory Lane, life is still very much worthwhile for both of us. Please don’t lose heart, and living for now is a really good idea. Big hugs. ??