I just cannot believe the different advice from 4 GPs I've spoken to this week regarding my Mum. I want to be able to continue to care for her in my home but I need support and something to give her at night to keep her calm or else I just can't continue dealing with this situation on my own, night after night. It's not fair on me, my Mum nor my dogs. I believe she is both physically ill at the moment, as well as extremely aggitated and mentally declining and, I believe depressed, repeatedly saying she wants to die. Last night she tried to push me down the stairs and was screaming that she hated me. I am a very strong person yet have been at crisis point this week, yet nobody will help me. As the Lorazapan didn't work at all yesterday which I was given for Mum on Tuesday by a locum with strict instructions to only give her 3 x 1/2 tablets a day, I had yet another terrible night and morning. This morning Mum told me she really felt very unwell and she looked shocking but as usual was unable to tell me or point to where there was a problem. I telephoned the surgery today at my wits end and the on-call doctor called me back. I was told Mum should not have been given Lorazapan. I was asked to take her in for blood tests today and she also had her blood pressure checked, weight and temperature. I was then asked to take her through to see the doctor who was oncall who I spoke to earlier. She said she had phoned the memory clinic to see if she could get Mum to see somebody there but they refused as she has never been there before and her diagnosis was reached by a psychiatrist sent from the court 4 years ago so they said there wasn't any need for her to go. I asked if there was a crisis team or some other organisation we could be referred for help but as I thought, there is nothing in our area. I reiterated I needed help as am coping alone which I am happy to do but the nightime antics are just terrible and getting worse and I am getting less and less sleep. She told me not to use the Lorazapan unless it was an emergency as she didn't think that was the correct drug for Mum. I told her every night is an emergency at the moment and that there must be something she can give Mum to help. She decided to relent and give me something for Mum but it wasnt until I got home I realised she had prescribed Mementine. Mum has vascular dementia and I thought that was for Alzheimers?? Confused, I phoned the surgery and spoke to yet another doctor who said I was correct and that it shouldn't have been prescribed so I am now in possession of 2 different drugs within 2 days that apparently she shouldnt have!! He then went on to say that if I can't cope to just put her in a home as that's what most people do, but if I wanted to experiment with the 2 drugs, to give them a go as they can't do any harm!!! I'm just so furious and feel so let down by the medical profession I just don't know what to do now.