Christmas Day, we made a huge effort this yr, knowing that it would be mums last in which she had any awareness. Whats come as a huge shock, is that that stage has already passed without me realising. OK, shes not been able to write cards this yr,buy presents or remember names of lifetime friends, but I somehow believed that she would recognise the day.Not so, today was much the same as every other over the last six months.She continued to repeat the same questions
about collecting her pension, over and over, wandered around mithered looking for god knows what, thought that the kids were on summer holidays from school, and generally the day was upsetting for us all.We both ended up in tears.
Have I deluded myself about how bad she actually is, is it denial, or was I hoping for a touch of normality in our very topsy turvy world, Im not sure, but the realisation has hit me hard.
She looks small and frightened, which echos how I feel tonight.
Ally xx
about collecting her pension, over and over, wandered around mithered looking for god knows what, thought that the kids were on summer holidays from school, and generally the day was upsetting for us all.We both ended up in tears.
Have I deluded myself about how bad she actually is, is it denial, or was I hoping for a touch of normality in our very topsy turvy world, Im not sure, but the realisation has hit me hard.
She looks small and frightened, which echos how I feel tonight.
Ally xx