Hi Nat
Believe me, I know how you feel. It's so difficult when you can't communicate with the one person you really want to talk to. I have the same problem with my husband, although his wasn't early-onset. You're so young to be having to cope with all this,
Have you had any reply to your letter to the university? I'd be interested to hear it.
I can't really help, except to say that I'm thinking of you.
Love and hugs,