I posted a few days ago, Mum declining. She has cardio-vascular mixed dementia. The last few days refused lunch, sleeps in chair a lot when I`m there, just holding each others hand. Ankles swollen. Seems very distance when looking at me, effort to talk. Still mobile, but only just holding on to me or carers. Its been a marked decline over the last last. Heartbroken of course, but been stronger yesterday and today. Stress if getting to me, cystitis (had this off and on for a year to two). Sarted again this morning - why - I`m dreading THAT phone call and I subconsciously expect this call anyday now. Not sure why carers not hinting and telling me to prepare myself. I`m not wishing my Mum`s life away, but can`t help wondering WHEN - trying to prepare myself. I know you can`t prepare for the finality but I`m only human. There might be a few years ot this to go yet, but with blockages in the heart stopping the ozygen getting to the brain, I feel it won`t be that long. Just needed to share this. My lovely husabnd is so good and listens to the daily update when I return hom, but I`m trying not to overkill him with my thoughts too. Son and Grandson too. All very supportive, but I can`t poor it all out to them.
So, I`ve stocked up on cystitis powders and have a fridge full of cranberry juice, here at my home and at Mum`s too.
Stop the world I want to off!!!
Heather x
So, I`ve stocked up on cystitis powders and have a fridge full of cranberry juice, here at my home and at Mum`s too.
Stop the world I want to off!!!
Heather x