I guess this is a really stupid question , we all cope with things differently but as I have had a really rotten day full of tears and saddness I ask myself the question, can I ever not just get over this grief but ever feel happy again, right now it doesn't feel possible. Having looked after my husband for so long, watching him slowly deteriorate, I feel like a major part of me has changed. This long goodbye as it's called seems to have slowly numbed the happiness spots in my brain and I don't feel I will ever be the same. I can laugh at a joke or a TV program, and enjoy the company of family gatherings but there is always this dull heaviness in my mind that creeps down into my throat and ends up as a rock in my chest.I know that sounds overly dramatic but that's just how it feels , this saddness has become a solid part of me.My husband lays in his chair ,eyes closed mouth gaping open, so terribly thin and helpless and I know when he goes my whole body is going to shut down. How do you recover from this , how do you 'Get on with your life' afterwards, and how do you find the motivation to even want to......................................Daizee