1. BlueFox

    BlueFox Registered User

    Dec 27, 2017
    25
    Hi All,
    I lost my Mom in August, and this is my first return to the forum. She had a quick and peaceful death which I am grateful for, but I am still coming to terms with her loss. It was quite a shock and I still don’t feel I have fully taken it on board. I am trying to find out who I am now a longer have a “carer” label. In many ways it should be a kind of freedom, but it still feels like I am missing something vital. I wanted to share this with you, it is inspire by my Mom, haunted trees was one of her phrases. She used it to describe autumn.

    Haunted Trees
    She spoke of haunted trees
    A word sought explanation from a fading mind
    The stark winter branches, arcing across her sight
    Mocking the connections her brain longer made.
    Trapped in dementia’s Faraday Cage
    Contained and separate

    She fights to stop the world receding from her,
    Raging at objects that have hidden their names
    An ear caught voice, once familiar, now littered with unknown tones
    An imagined childhood, friends that never call.
    Fear or death the barrier - no longer certain which.

    Sometimes we go driving, the tarmaced rhythm soothing
    And then, electric memory, burning across the canopy
    Turning to me “I miss him” she whispers, branches briefly touching
    But soon she is back amongst the haunted trees
    Lost in a forest of broken neurones
    An ancient child weeping for rescue
    Not realising the familiar will never again comfort her.
     
  2. Moggymad

    Moggymad Registered User

    May 12, 2017
    454
    Female
    A very insightful poem @BlueFox. I am very sorry for your loss & the grief you are stil feeling.
    My mum always looked upwards at the birds flying about from tree to tree & would raise her arm to point at them like she was seeing them for the first time. I imagined somewhere in her mind she wanted to fly free like the birds. This she can now do having left us a few weeks ago. A peaceful passing which I too am grateful for. X
     
  3. Marcelle123

    Marcelle123 Registered User

    Nov 9, 2015
    4,509
    Yorkshire
    I think this is a very good poem, @BlueFox.
    I love the structure and the imagery.

    I'm a retired English teacher, and would definitely have wanted to take it into my classes, and I think it contains a lot of insight into the condition of dementia.

    Thanks for posting it!
     
  4. BlueFox

    BlueFox Registered User

    Dec 27, 2017
    25
     
  5. BlueFox

    BlueFox Registered User

    Dec 27, 2017
    25
    Thank you, I was very moved to hear your story about your Mom. A read something yesterday saying about the heart flying free. Maybe that is the common link.
     
  6. BlueFox

    BlueFox Registered User

    Dec 27, 2017
    25
    No worries, I just wanted to say something about dementia and what it does to the people we love.
     

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