It is now 5 and a half months since I lost my OH, to this dreadful disease . this past month I have been so lonely and nothing seems to have gone right. They dont mention loneliness in the stages of grief but it should be included in it.
Today I have sat and cried my heart out because I feel so alone, I feel like every body is moving on in life except me and I feel like I am on a raft in the middle of the ocean drifting away. In the early days I was surrounded by people couldnt do enough to help in anyway they could but as time goes by people think you are ok now and leave you to it. I know people have got their lives to get on with and I dont blame them., but the truth is I dont know how to move forward .People think I am strong but I dont feel like it. I have applied for a couple of jobs over the last few week to try and get back to a little normality but to no avail, my confidence seems to be disappearing .
Friends are busy with there own lives now and I dont know how to move forward, I have friends in different parts of the country that I dont see much of especially when covid arrived, and I dont want to bother any one . I feel worse now then what I did back in march. We are coming into dark nights now and it was this time of year when my OH health deteriorated and it is bringing back memories.
I dont know what to do with myself has any one got any ideas of of groups or clubs that deal with the recently widowed? Thanks
Today I have sat and cried my heart out because I feel so alone, I feel like every body is moving on in life except me and I feel like I am on a raft in the middle of the ocean drifting away. In the early days I was surrounded by people couldnt do enough to help in anyway they could but as time goes by people think you are ok now and leave you to it. I know people have got their lives to get on with and I dont blame them., but the truth is I dont know how to move forward .People think I am strong but I dont feel like it. I have applied for a couple of jobs over the last few week to try and get back to a little normality but to no avail, my confidence seems to be disappearing .
Friends are busy with there own lives now and I dont know how to move forward, I have friends in different parts of the country that I dont see much of especially when covid arrived, and I dont want to bother any one . I feel worse now then what I did back in march. We are coming into dark nights now and it was this time of year when my OH health deteriorated and it is bringing back memories.
I dont know what to do with myself has any one got any ideas of of groups or clubs that deal with the recently widowed? Thanks