Yesterday I totally lost it, I'm so ashamed of myself, I normally manage to cope, but just snapped, I suppose it's been coming for a long time, I'm just so tired. I have not been out of the house for weeks except to keep a hospital appointment, so I'm with JH all day every day, there's no getting away, all my shopping is delivered, we live in a rural village. But since just over a week ago JH decided he can't eat food he needs to chew as it sticks in his teeth, I'm trying my best to please him and give him a healthy diet but he just says no to most things offered, when I ask what would he like, he says he doesn't know as he's not the cook and can only tell me what he doesn't want. Also he won't drink much as he's says it's making him pee too much. So yesterday when I made him a sausage sandwich for breakfast which he usually really likes, you'd think I put something weird and horrible on his plate, well as I say to my shame I just lost it, I don't remember when I last cried so hard or so much, so I've gone from tired to exhausted and he harped on about that sandwich for hours afterwards. I am do not coping with the new turn of events, I was managing OK up until this food thing and it's not as if I can just go to the shops and get something else. Today I hate myself for my outburst.