Mum is in respite, this week is mine/ours. I havn't been able to get time to drive since mum came to live with us 2yrs ago. (I have health probs of my own) I drove today, went to see my daughter and an old friend, hubby came too, he was a right xxxx hole and sapped my confidence driving throughout. He doesn't mean to, it is the situation we are in. He has health probs too (back injury)and we have a son in a wheelchair. (Thru hip amputation of left leg, paralysis of right hand and bad depression)I am so tired, Mum is due back Tuesday night, I am so worried, we have a new agency starting, the last was useless, Mum is a nightmare at night. I get one night a week from Crosssroads, (brilliant, the girl is wonderful and also now a true friend) The old friend (She is in her 80's ) mentioned how hard it must be and how our lives were just non existant because it all revolves around mum. It pulled me up, made me think. She mentioned the guilt factor, she hit the nail on the head. I love my mum, I love my husband, I love my son, I love my daughter (she also has M.E. like me) and I love my son in law who is in remission from cancer. What is going on? I don't know how much more I can cope with, I am feeling really weak, but they ALL expect me to be the strong one. What should I do, I can't make them all well, I can't even make myself well. What do I do when Tuesday comes? I feel so alone, and so fed up, tired and scared. Sorry, I know this is not what you want to hear, but I am really down right now.