I have to talk to someone. Y
Sorry for moaning, you don't even have to read this if you don't want, I just feel better for getting it off my chest and feel that I am venting it somewhere. I apologise for my outburst in advance!!
Yesterday I went round to mum's in the morning (my brother was already there he had made her breakfast for her, as we have to make all her meals as we have "disconnected" the cooker (we switch it off at the fuse box so she cannot turn it on as she leaves it on with things in the oven or on the hob.)
Anyway I asked her to come round for her tea later in the afternoon and she set off on one of her rants about why did I put her there !! (she hates where she lives and blames me for moving her there) , " Why have you stolen everything from me and given it to your son" , "how could you treat me this way", she said I do not take after her or my dad but I am like my auntie (who mum really did not like at all). Anyway, usually after all this ranting directed at me, I try very hard to say nothing and take it with a pinch of salt and try and remember my mantra "this is not mum it's her illness, this is not mum it's her illness" but yesterday I absolutely blew a fuse and shouted at her told her I was not bothered if she ate or starved, I could not be bothered to come and sort her out every day, I was not going to keep having all these things thrown at me, I was sick of it all, and stormed out of her house leaving her and my brother sat there (my brother never said a word other than "don't slam the door". Please note that ion mum's eyes my brother does not do anything wrong and all I ever hear mum say is "your brother has been good, he did this and he did that etc"!! which doesn't help!
I cried all the way home and people were looking at me like I was some mad woman crying and walking down the street.
When I got in the first thing I did was ring mum's and spoke to my brother and said "you know I will make her tea don't you"
I feel like I am losing the plot. I have recently had some blood tests and surprise surprise, find I am menopausal (like I've not got enought to cope with!!!).
Anyway, just had to have a rant and get it off my chest and need someone here to tell me they have done the same at some time.
I feel really bad and feel that I have not only let mum down I have let myself down. (I did take her a lovely tea round as she refused to come to my house to eat, anyway she ate two forkfuls of it and gave the rest to the dog!!)
Hellllpppppp!! I am now going to have a look on the internet for natural remedies for menopause as I don't really want to go on HRT just yet.
Sorry for moaning
Maggie x
Sorry for moaning, you don't even have to read this if you don't want, I just feel better for getting it off my chest and feel that I am venting it somewhere. I apologise for my outburst in advance!!
Yesterday I went round to mum's in the morning (my brother was already there he had made her breakfast for her, as we have to make all her meals as we have "disconnected" the cooker (we switch it off at the fuse box so she cannot turn it on as she leaves it on with things in the oven or on the hob.)
Anyway I asked her to come round for her tea later in the afternoon and she set off on one of her rants about why did I put her there !! (she hates where she lives and blames me for moving her there) , " Why have you stolen everything from me and given it to your son" , "how could you treat me this way", she said I do not take after her or my dad but I am like my auntie (who mum really did not like at all). Anyway, usually after all this ranting directed at me, I try very hard to say nothing and take it with a pinch of salt and try and remember my mantra "this is not mum it's her illness, this is not mum it's her illness" but yesterday I absolutely blew a fuse and shouted at her told her I was not bothered if she ate or starved, I could not be bothered to come and sort her out every day, I was not going to keep having all these things thrown at me, I was sick of it all, and stormed out of her house leaving her and my brother sat there (my brother never said a word other than "don't slam the door". Please note that ion mum's eyes my brother does not do anything wrong and all I ever hear mum say is "your brother has been good, he did this and he did that etc"!! which doesn't help!
I cried all the way home and people were looking at me like I was some mad woman crying and walking down the street.
When I got in the first thing I did was ring mum's and spoke to my brother and said "you know I will make her tea don't you"
I feel like I am losing the plot. I have recently had some blood tests and surprise surprise, find I am menopausal (like I've not got enought to cope with!!!).
Anyway, just had to have a rant and get it off my chest and need someone here to tell me they have done the same at some time.
I feel really bad and feel that I have not only let mum down I have let myself down. (I did take her a lovely tea round as she refused to come to my house to eat, anyway she ate two forkfuls of it and gave the rest to the dog!!)
Hellllpppppp!! I am now going to have a look on the internet for natural remedies for menopause as I don't really want to go on HRT just yet.
Sorry for moaning
Maggie x
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