Hi E1
Hope you are all keeping as well as can be.
Wow where has the last week gone?? Think I'v just been in a daze.
Not been having such a good time of things. I'v been there for the family and have let them vent off with me, which I don't mind because it takes my thoughts away from myself. I think my son has taken it worse than I thought, but then again I don't think I really knew how he would take it all.
He keeps talking about Nanna B and that she is up in the clouds with his friends . The other day he told me that next time he gets really ill he wants to go upto the clouds to be with his Nanna B I told him that would be a long time yet. There are two sides to Jack at the moment 1) is when he is really good and gives me kiss's and cuddles all the time and 2) when he has tantrums. This tantrums have got really bad over the week, he had such a bad tantrum the other day he gave himself a nose bleed (his blood pressure must have gone through the roof to cause it). I'm just putting it down to him missing Nanna B and hopefully he will get back to being himself soon.
The last couple of days I just keep crying at everything and anything. I was in the supermarket the other day and saw the sweets I use to get my Nanna when we went on visits and had to stop myself from bursting into tears. I think I'm slowly realising that no I won't see her again or cuddle her again but then I think at least she's in no pain now.
I just miss her so so much, but then again I feel she is still with me. Just so .
Take Care
Clare
Hope you are all keeping as well as can be.
Wow where has the last week gone?? Think I'v just been in a daze.
Not been having such a good time of things. I'v been there for the family and have let them vent off with me, which I don't mind because it takes my thoughts away from myself. I think my son has taken it worse than I thought, but then again I don't think I really knew how he would take it all.
He keeps talking about Nanna B and that she is up in the clouds with his friends . The other day he told me that next time he gets really ill he wants to go upto the clouds to be with his Nanna B I told him that would be a long time yet. There are two sides to Jack at the moment 1) is when he is really good and gives me kiss's and cuddles all the time and 2) when he has tantrums. This tantrums have got really bad over the week, he had such a bad tantrum the other day he gave himself a nose bleed (his blood pressure must have gone through the roof to cause it). I'm just putting it down to him missing Nanna B and hopefully he will get back to being himself soon.
The last couple of days I just keep crying at everything and anything. I was in the supermarket the other day and saw the sweets I use to get my Nanna when we went on visits and had to stop myself from bursting into tears. I think I'm slowly realising that no I won't see her again or cuddle her again but then I think at least she's in no pain now.
I just miss her so so much, but then again I feel she is still with me. Just so .
Take Care
Clare