I'm not off to polish my halo, I'm off to polish my MEDAL, the one I gave to myself for being a caring, loving, unselfish, compassionate, mentally strong, resilient, capable, good organiser, cleaner, cook, washer upper, poop cleaner upper, pee cleaner upper, good at ironing, feeder of helpless mum, hairdresser to helpless mum, fighting for my mum, living with a mum who had a personality I know longer recognised but I still loved her, and when sadly she had to go to care home visited her everyday until the very end and would have done all this again for her, its called love.