Mum is still getting alot worse, I spent my easter holidays at home! Dad took mum and the carer to australia for 3 weeks to see her best friend and you can imagen as soon as she heard she was going she asked every minute when they were going.
Since then the deteriotion has rapidly declined It really upset me as she really really cant do anything for herself. She is still having these awful dreams screaming and shouting, I went in twice to help out dad and she didnt know who he was shouting for help saying a strange man was trying to kill her.
She always asks if she can go home even though she is home and she keeps saying 'i keep doing things wrong dont I' which of course we say No.
My dad is finding it more and more hard recently and im more concerned about him. When mum has the bad dreams he just doesnt know what to do and is exhausted in the morning.
Ive asked him to come on here or go to groups but he says its not for him. We have recently had to sack a carer as she was making mum upset (for the reason that we dont know)! So now have more pressure to fill in the 2 week gap for the alternative week set up we have,
Sorry to rant on but its hard to discuss things with my friends who have know idea what im going through!
I hate this horrible disease! I want my Mum back, i feel i have lost out majorly! Why could i not have my mum for a few more years why i could remember what she use to be like! 17 years of my mum is not long enough! 5 years on and Ive started to write down things that my mum use to do and say when i was younger so that i wont forget as its all i have!
Please would some brainy scientist come up with a cure and make my mum better! I suppose we can dream sometimes!xxXxx
Since then the deteriotion has rapidly declined It really upset me as she really really cant do anything for herself. She is still having these awful dreams screaming and shouting, I went in twice to help out dad and she didnt know who he was shouting for help saying a strange man was trying to kill her.
She always asks if she can go home even though she is home and she keeps saying 'i keep doing things wrong dont I' which of course we say No.
My dad is finding it more and more hard recently and im more concerned about him. When mum has the bad dreams he just doesnt know what to do and is exhausted in the morning.
Ive asked him to come on here or go to groups but he says its not for him. We have recently had to sack a carer as she was making mum upset (for the reason that we dont know)! So now have more pressure to fill in the 2 week gap for the alternative week set up we have,
Sorry to rant on but its hard to discuss things with my friends who have know idea what im going through!
I hate this horrible disease! I want my Mum back, i feel i have lost out majorly! Why could i not have my mum for a few more years why i could remember what she use to be like! 17 years of my mum is not long enough! 5 years on and Ive started to write down things that my mum use to do and say when i was younger so that i wont forget as its all i have!
Please would some brainy scientist come up with a cure and make my mum better! I suppose we can dream sometimes!xxXxx