It has been hard at times (harder for most of you here, I know), as we've adjusted to the last 2 years, but life is becoming so very hectic. My 2 youngest children both finish Uni this summer, and will move back home until they find a job. My eldest is also moving back home as she changes jobs. They have all been coming back at incresingly frequent intervals, and this has been a real bonus, however I am finding that I haven't been able to give Mum quite the same amount of attention. No matter how I try, there are never enough hours in the day. She now has Daycare and her Group, so I know that whatever happens, I can rely on these (though she isn't happy with her Group anymore), however she can make me feel as though I am failing her by just a look, or the way she says a certain word. We have kept a small stock of frozen meals for when I can't cook, but she is now not eating these at all. This doesn't matter, because she is well nourished, but I feel she's doing it to hurt me, because I have failed to produce a fresh meal. She is now locking the doors against her neighbours, and she finds more and more to critisise. The children have always loved her, but now I sense that they resent her, because of what she's doing to me (and my husband). She was here for my daughter's birthday meal and was in a terrible mood, which in turn upset everyone. I took her to the opticians yesterday morning, then collected her for the Group at 1pm. She told me she'd been at a loose end all morning. When she got in from Group, I asked what she'd been doing and out came the stock answer, 'nothing, what is there TO do'. I think I have put as much in place as I can for the time being. Her week is well-balanced, but it seems that as she remmebers nothing of what she does, the times she is alone, she thinks I've abandoned her. YET, she has taken a particular dislike to one neighbour following an incident last week, and she has rememebred that ....HOW DOES SHE DO THAT? How can she remember the bad things? I am sorry to be so down. I sometimes feel like just giving up. Sitting down and letting whatever is going to happen, happen. Let it all take care of itself.