Hello, I've been a member of TP for a while and often read posts, the info and advice given out has helped me loads. This is my first post, for 2 1/2 years I have been looking after mum, 86 years old with mixed dementia. I also look after my sister who has autism. I get 9 hours sitting service during the week usually spent shopping for home, try to take my sister out and have 1 hour Pilates a week - the only time I truly switch off. We have some good days and we have the bad too, like all who care for loved ones and we have nights without any sleep. Mum is on a pureed diet, I tried the ready made meals for a while but she did not enjoy them so I bought some moulds and now prepare all her food, lots of flavours etc and she eats it all and has put on weight. All I seem to do is cook, clean wash and iron and I know I am probably better off than most but I feel so fed up. I'm not good at talking about how I feel at the best of times. I miss talking about everyday normal things, a TV programme I might have seen, music, cooking ideas to try other things for mum. I feel a fraud for even writing this, and guilty for being so fed up most of the time I think I cope well but just sometimes..... Sorry for the long post and thank you if you managed to get this far, maybe I need to make more use of TP.