This medication increase and decrease is taking its toll now. This morning other half refused medication, won't go near me. Was standing in the hallway if I went near him was cursing me 'I am evil' and other words I cannot print. So I left him alone . My little boy tried coax him, still no luck. 2 1/2 hours later managed to get through to him and straight away I gave him a lorazepam tablet. Since then he has been calm, had breakfast, bath and shave and a trip to shops. How can I stop decrease the tablet they want me to when that is the only one allowing me to be sane. If it was just me and him I probably could leave him to carrying on like he is but with my young son in the house I just can't. Will weaning him off the lorazepam later once the antidepressants (mirtizapine) settle in his system be worse than what I am being made to go through right now. Will ring doctor on monday until then hubby will be getting lorazapam 3 times a day. Feel like a drug dealer dishing out the stuff for my own piece of mind......Am I wrong?