Mum died a few weeks ago and I just feel empty, numb, as if Im living in a parallel universe. I dont think it has helped that OH (with FTD) had a stroke just a couple of days before the funeral. I have not cried at all, I cant concentrate on anything and my memory is shot to pieces. The only thing that is keeping me going is the thought that I have to be there for OH - and my lists. Ever since mum passed away there has been so much to do and so many people to contact that I have made lists and lists of lists - ticking off stuff at the top and adding stuff at the bottom, making notes of what has happened, what was said and what I have to do, carrying the unfinished stuff over to the next list etc etc. Now Im making lists of what I have to do that that day (ironing, picking up OHs drugs), menus for the week and shopping lists. I think that without my lists I would collapse and people say that I look like Im in shock (perhaps I am).
Im sorry, there are no questions here and probably no answers. I just needed to say this.
Im sorry, there are no questions here and probably no answers. I just needed to say this.