Whilst it's still quite true that my feelings confuse me by being somewhat "blank" I am starting to experience thoughts that I'm scared about. I find myself thinking who I should be grieving for. Is it my Mum before Alzheimer's, my Mum after Alzheimer's etc or a combination of both. I don't know the answer right now and feel in a strange limbo. I wonder if anyone else has thought this. Thanks for reading.