Sorry but I am at my wits end and on the verge on a breakdown.....again. Firstly I lost my dad 5 years ago to vascular dementia. I helped care for him for many years prior to loosing him. Now my mum had Vascular Dementia and Alzheimers. She was diagnosed a year ago via a brain scan and mental health team. However I think she has had it longer. Well mum lives in warden controlled flats. She had gone down badly past few weeks. She is almost blind had COPD and Crohns. After a very big struggle we have carers going in now 3 times a day as we found 6 months worth of medication hidden all over. She hasn’t been eating drinking and lost a stone. Now mums turned this week and said dosnt want carers dosnt want a shower...I could write a book. Mum is constantly repeating herself. Loosing everything in fact to me not safe anymore. We have had the gas cooker disconnected. I am constantly on phone to social workers, mental health team mums Gp etc etc. It’s endless. If not I am up at mums with meetings the care system. Now I will come to me. I have Fibromyalgia, M.E/CFS cervical and lumbar Spondilosis and other health problems. Now I have become very ill to the point I am in horrendous pain awful fatigue constant crying. I am becoming very confused and irritable. My marriage is suffering now too. My Gp has told me to stop and turn the phone off. How can I. Well yesterday I cracked in front of mum. We had the mental health nurse there. Mums carer came, The lead team carer to do an assessment. I burst into tears shaking. No one took any notice. Today I have been in bed all day. I feel numb. I can’t carry on anymore. We also my husband and myself found bills not paid, assessment forms, all sorts threw it all in a bag and brought it home. This morning I sobbed and said I can’t fill these forms in and I am shutting myself away. I have no help much only a brother who,pops in now and then. Any advice very welcome as I am so ill I am going to end up in hospital before long. This is only part of what’s going on and what I am dealing with.