To all my friends at TP
Once again i would just like to say a BIG THANK YOU to everyone for all their support over the last two months, you really don't know how much help you have all been.
Ray died about 4 hours ago (Sunday 11/06/06 at 10.35pm)
After horrific suffering he is now at peace, its been such a long, long road but i'm just pleased that i was there to see him start his journey. It broke my heart to leave him in that room and i know i will never get over it, but what will keep me going is knowing that i am the luckiest person on this planet!
I am lucky because i have known and loved the Kindest, Wittiest, Charming, Handsome, Tender, Thoughtful, Strong, Caring man to have ever walked this planet and i am so, so, so lucky that he chose me! I am so proud of him, he is and always will be my hero and i hope to aspire to being just a fraction of the person he was.
Towards the end Ray was having great trouble breathing as he was drowning in the fluid on his lungs and the doctors tried to clear some of the fluid with a suction tube, well thats exactly how i feel at the moment, as though someone has put a suction tube inside of me and sucked everything out! I am sure it will be a long time before i will feel as though life has something to offer, but my fight is over now and i just hope i can fill the void he has left.
I have loved him since i was 18 and I know i have some dark days ahead of me but i also have beautiful memories and hopefully that will help me through.
I only had a small insight into vascular dementia but through that i met you all and that shows that good can come out of bad.
I would like to keep in touch with TP as i feel we all have something in common.
Many thanks
Alex
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Once again i would just like to say a BIG THANK YOU to everyone for all their support over the last two months, you really don't know how much help you have all been.
Ray died about 4 hours ago (Sunday 11/06/06 at 10.35pm)
After horrific suffering he is now at peace, its been such a long, long road but i'm just pleased that i was there to see him start his journey. It broke my heart to leave him in that room and i know i will never get over it, but what will keep me going is knowing that i am the luckiest person on this planet!
I am lucky because i have known and loved the Kindest, Wittiest, Charming, Handsome, Tender, Thoughtful, Strong, Caring man to have ever walked this planet and i am so, so, so lucky that he chose me! I am so proud of him, he is and always will be my hero and i hope to aspire to being just a fraction of the person he was.
Towards the end Ray was having great trouble breathing as he was drowning in the fluid on his lungs and the doctors tried to clear some of the fluid with a suction tube, well thats exactly how i feel at the moment, as though someone has put a suction tube inside of me and sucked everything out! I am sure it will be a long time before i will feel as though life has something to offer, but my fight is over now and i just hope i can fill the void he has left.
I have loved him since i was 18 and I know i have some dark days ahead of me but i also have beautiful memories and hopefully that will help me through.
I only had a small insight into vascular dementia but through that i met you all and that shows that good can come out of bad.
I would like to keep in touch with TP as i feel we all have something in common.
Many thanks
Alex
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