It has been 11 days since my mother had any food or water. Hospice said yesterday she was actively dying.
Why does it feel like she has been dying for months? We are lucky, she and I, in some ways. It has been exactly 2 years since the diagnosis of dementia.
But I am still mad. I am mad that her body does not seem to be giving up. I am mad at her for holding on and making me watch.
My father died 5 years ago and his death was peaceful. I was there on the last day. There was none of this waiting for the last breath so it could finally be over.
I love my mother fiercely and have mourned her loss for the last 2 years. I am sure I will grieve when she dies but right now I am mad.
Why does it feel like she has been dying for months? We are lucky, she and I, in some ways. It has been exactly 2 years since the diagnosis of dementia.
But I am still mad. I am mad that her body does not seem to be giving up. I am mad at her for holding on and making me watch.
My father died 5 years ago and his death was peaceful. I was there on the last day. There was none of this waiting for the last breath so it could finally be over.
I love my mother fiercely and have mourned her loss for the last 2 years. I am sure I will grieve when she dies but right now I am mad.