You should be able to rely on your CPN or SW. It is very hard to handle - maybe my hubby is not going downhill so quickly but it is still difficult to cope with those almost impossible days. So far I feel stronger after speaking to friends, and the most understanding of those have to be the ones who have partners suffering in a similar way. They have lived it too and seems to be on the same wavelength. Also, of course, here on TP you can get much sympathy and practical help.
(Not sure what ftd means!).
Hope you get better comments than mine. Chin up and plod on as we all do.
I know it can all be so daunting at times, it's like you just adjust to one change and another appears. Unfortunately, I don't think you can fully prepare yourself for these changes you can only go with the flow of thing's. As Norman said; hopefully tomorrow will be better. Take Care. Taffy.