It's been awhile since I last posted.
Daughter and I had a wonderful holiday together and Mum's first respite stay went better than I had envisaged. Staff told me she initially presents far better than she is! She had hidden her dirty pull ups in her suitcase. What was worse they then packed her clean clothes into case to come home!
She then had a second stay in respite only about two weeks later due to a booked family activity and was very hostile about going that time. It was bad luck that the two stays were so close together but I stood firm. When I collected her she was absolutely seething as the staff had told me she had been hiding her dirty pull ups again. So I think I will have trouble getting her to go in September (booked her in so I can help daughter move to uni halls).
I must admit life caring for mum is becoming more difficult. I find my tolerance is being tested and I must own up to feeling resentful of time slipping away and the restrictions placed on my life. Mum is also having periods of becoming more difficult and I think this does not help. She goes to day care for about five hours a week but I find I now spend most of this time cleaning her annex before she comes back.
I am trying to live one day at a time these days and I suppose I have avoided the forum or any program's and articles which feature dementia because that now is my daily life and I want to escape reality:/. Ultimately, though I have ended up back here once again venting because you guys know what the reality is like too and what it's like to see someone you love become a stranger and dare I say it a burden. Is it wrong to wish my mother could end her life with dignity? I never thought I would end up putting this in black and white but its how I feel and certainly my future wishes which I have decided to put in an advance directive if such a thing is possible.
Daughter and I had a wonderful holiday together and Mum's first respite stay went better than I had envisaged. Staff told me she initially presents far better than she is! She had hidden her dirty pull ups in her suitcase. What was worse they then packed her clean clothes into case to come home!
She then had a second stay in respite only about two weeks later due to a booked family activity and was very hostile about going that time. It was bad luck that the two stays were so close together but I stood firm. When I collected her she was absolutely seething as the staff had told me she had been hiding her dirty pull ups again. So I think I will have trouble getting her to go in September (booked her in so I can help daughter move to uni halls).
I must admit life caring for mum is becoming more difficult. I find my tolerance is being tested and I must own up to feeling resentful of time slipping away and the restrictions placed on my life. Mum is also having periods of becoming more difficult and I think this does not help. She goes to day care for about five hours a week but I find I now spend most of this time cleaning her annex before she comes back.
I am trying to live one day at a time these days and I suppose I have avoided the forum or any program's and articles which feature dementia because that now is my daily life and I want to escape reality:/. Ultimately, though I have ended up back here once again venting because you guys know what the reality is like too and what it's like to see someone you love become a stranger and dare I say it a burden. Is it wrong to wish my mother could end her life with dignity? I never thought I would end up putting this in black and white but its how I feel and certainly my future wishes which I have decided to put in an advance directive if such a thing is possible.