Dear Helen
I am so sorry to hear your news.
My father was diagnosed with cancer four years ago. He had ended up in hospital after developing symptoms which we could never have guessed would lead to the eventual diagnosis of bowel cancer (with secondary tumours on his liver & lungs). He had never suffered any of the “typical” symptoms & had always been so fit & active. Everyone who knew him was so shocked. So I do understand a little of the devastation you must feel. In Alan’s case, his difficulties with language would have made it so much harder for him to communicate any symptoms to anyone, if he did have any at an earlier stage.
All I can say to you is accept whatever help & support is offered. If that means things are “taken out of your hands” for a while, so be it. You need time to rally your emotional & practical resources, & you need a rest. You will also be having to deal with the reaction of other members of the family to the news.
If you have a hospice in your area, they can be a fantastic source of support for both sufferer & carer. Our local hospice was a godsend, especially with home care towards to end of Dad's life. I’m sure your GP and/or the hospital will point you in the right direction for whatever services are available to you.
Much love to you & Alan xx