had a review yesterday, scan to be done, possible lewy bodies, it was all positive plans, so why did I feel so down yesterday after the visit, poor love was asleep, and there was no way I was going to wake him, and then leave a few minutes later, as it was nearing dinner time. It takes a while for him to realize who I am, just as he would have recognised me I would be going. God I miss him at home, and feel so awful leaving him there, I am trying to keep busy, hair this afternoon, might give me the lift I need. He hasnt been away for a week yet, but it feels much more, visits are so difficult, I dont want to leave him there, but I know deep inside that he is in a much better place there, with the care, and the safety aspect. My head knows its the right place for him, but my heart is still breaking, his days vary from hour to hour from happy to agitated, and back to happy, at least he is eating most days ok, and he is sleeping alright as well, and as far as I know no accidents in the night, so thats good. Possible the week of accidents a month ago was an infection, as he seems to be back to 'normal' now.
Here hoping he is having a good day today.