I might 43 and gave been looking after my mum for 15 years now, I left a very good job in London as she was diagnosed with bowel cancer to look after her (or for her to look after me , She suffered a TIA about 3/4 years ago and dementia set In pretty much straight away,
When I left London I left my so called work friends and we are no longer in contact, so I have no friends at all, I don't want sympathy, it's hard knowing you don't have 1 friend, I cant talk to anyone, My mum used to be my best friend but she doesn't really know who I am so I have lost my only friend now,
I suffer from Social Anxiety and find it hard to go out and I think I went out once in the past 3 weeks, my mood is lower than normal (You name it I have it, recovering Alcoholic, suffered from Bulimia since I was 17, I'm coping with the Bulimia after seeing a councillor for the past 2 years , at least it was someone to talk to.
I'm on Mirtazapine anti depressants, swapped from fluoxetine 4 months ago, then douloxetine,
I was discharged from my local Mental health service as, in the Psychologists word "You're not suicidal or a madman,
My next service has a 7 or 8 month waiting list and it's for six sessions only.
I won't see any family until Tuesday (They live a mile away), and nobody calls anymore as my other siblings won't speak to her as she obviously repeats herself and I feel they are rotten as it's not her fault and I have told them and 3/4 of my family don't call or visit, my one brother who lives 1mile away has never been to our flat.
Thanks for letting me vent, I hate the depression as I don't feel I'm looking after her and I'm terrified of Losing her as I wouldn't know what to do as I would need to move out as I couldn't afford the rent, I would be homeless and scared to death, I'm afraid of how my mood will plummet from the depression I'm suffering now, I thought anti depressants were supposed to elevate your mood but nothing seems to work
Have a good Sunday,
Spiderpig
When I left London I left my so called work friends and we are no longer in contact, so I have no friends at all, I don't want sympathy, it's hard knowing you don't have 1 friend, I cant talk to anyone, My mum used to be my best friend but she doesn't really know who I am so I have lost my only friend now,
I suffer from Social Anxiety and find it hard to go out and I think I went out once in the past 3 weeks, my mood is lower than normal (You name it I have it, recovering Alcoholic, suffered from Bulimia since I was 17, I'm coping with the Bulimia after seeing a councillor for the past 2 years , at least it was someone to talk to.
I'm on Mirtazapine anti depressants, swapped from fluoxetine 4 months ago, then douloxetine,
I was discharged from my local Mental health service as, in the Psychologists word "You're not suicidal or a madman,
My next service has a 7 or 8 month waiting list and it's for six sessions only.
I won't see any family until Tuesday (They live a mile away), and nobody calls anymore as my other siblings won't speak to her as she obviously repeats herself and I feel they are rotten as it's not her fault and I have told them and 3/4 of my family don't call or visit, my one brother who lives 1mile away has never been to our flat.
Thanks for letting me vent, I hate the depression as I don't feel I'm looking after her and I'm terrified of Losing her as I wouldn't know what to do as I would need to move out as I couldn't afford the rent, I would be homeless and scared to death, I'm afraid of how my mood will plummet from the depression I'm suffering now, I thought anti depressants were supposed to elevate your mood but nothing seems to work
Have a good Sunday,
Spiderpig