Hi all and thank you, I didn't get much sleep I'm afraid, I have cared for mum for quite a long time now, so it felt like something was missing, even the constant banging on the furniture through the night. Nothing to report at the moment the hospital say she is about the same and they are continuing with there treatment and tests, I also spoke to the District Nurse who has been treating mum, she did say the other day that she thought something else was going on and that mum was very poorly. She also said this morning that I maybe that we need to prepare ourselves for no improvement. my daughter and I spoke of nothing else until the very early hours and she thinks, as I think I do too that perhaps I have done all I can for mum now she cannot get around and really needs constant nursing 24 hours. I also had a call from mums SW this morning FINALLY!! who said I did need to speak to the hospital SW as mums condition has got so dire so we can do what is best for her. She always panicked if she was away from me, but now she believes I am her elder sister and my daughter is me, so probably the time is right to consider nursing care. The trouble is I feel so terrible for thinking like this, as though I am letting her down and abandoning her. I will see what the hospital has to say on her condition when I go this afternoon. Thank you for all the messages it does help to know you are not alone and a bad person xx