Do you ever come to terms with the guilt?
My mum has AD and is in an assement ward and has been since last june, but is currently waiting to go into an EMI nursing home.
It was pressure from me to get her into hospital as she became aggressive towards me etc, after 5 weeks of her being in hospital she came back home (as she lived with me)and after 4 days on being home she became agressive again and to cut a long story short ended back in hospital and has got worse ever since. She no longer really speaks apart from the odd yes and no and wanders around all the time whilst visiting her, i always promised her that i would never put her in a home but sadly the time has come when she will have to because i know that i could not look after her at home and would have to give up my job to do so (which i cannot at the moment as my husband has just been made redundant), which would make me a prisoner in my home, am i being selfish? and how do i come to terms with the guilt that i feel.
I love my Mum so much and would do anything for her but i just cannot do this. When she turned on me i have never witness such hatred from her towards me and i know it was not her fault but the illness but that memory of how she was is still very raw and brings tears to my eyes everytime i think about those days.
I just want what is best for her and i will be there for her as much as i can be. I visit her every other night of the week after work and do not normally get home until 9pm when i do go and see her.
Laylabud
My mum has AD and is in an assement ward and has been since last june, but is currently waiting to go into an EMI nursing home.
It was pressure from me to get her into hospital as she became aggressive towards me etc, after 5 weeks of her being in hospital she came back home (as she lived with me)and after 4 days on being home she became agressive again and to cut a long story short ended back in hospital and has got worse ever since. She no longer really speaks apart from the odd yes and no and wanders around all the time whilst visiting her, i always promised her that i would never put her in a home but sadly the time has come when she will have to because i know that i could not look after her at home and would have to give up my job to do so (which i cannot at the moment as my husband has just been made redundant), which would make me a prisoner in my home, am i being selfish? and how do i come to terms with the guilt that i feel.
I love my Mum so much and would do anything for her but i just cannot do this. When she turned on me i have never witness such hatred from her towards me and i know it was not her fault but the illness but that memory of how she was is still very raw and brings tears to my eyes everytime i think about those days.
I just want what is best for her and i will be there for her as much as i can be. I visit her every other night of the week after work and do not normally get home until 9pm when i do go and see her.
Laylabud