My lovely mom was diagnosed 3 years ago with altzheimers, I was subsequently made redundant so became her carer, she was a very glamorous, career driven and bright woman. She divorced twice (2nd after step dads bankruptcy) but managed to own her home outright by retirement. She was proud but also bitter about everything she had lost over the years. My sister and I both have young children so neither of us can be with her all the time. She became a wonderer, would go out without any notice at any time of day or night. Finally we got a social worker and a care package but despite mum being picked up by an ambulance at 10pm one night because she had fallen and smashed her face, the social worker insisted that we leave her at home so that her ability to live alone was assessed. She had alarms (lifeline) installed so that I would know if she went out, she had the fire brigade out because she set fire to the kitchen! The last straw was when I had been alerted to her going out and I found her walking on a busy road, in her nighty with red lipstick on her eyes. I called the doctor who put her in to hospital so she would have to be assessed. When the ambulance came it broke my heart because I knew it was the last time she would be at her home, the last few months have been awful, she was initially placed in a home miles away after leaving hospital, then we were allowed to move her, covid cases stopped her being moved several times and prevented us from visiting. My sister and I have had to clear her home and dispose of many of her belongings. But we have got through it! Today though, signing papers to sell her home has completely tipped me over the edge! Her mum also had altzheimers and she told us both that if she ever got like that we should push her off a cliff! I feel so guilty that we have sold her home, that we have put her in a home, that she is still here despite how much she would have hated it. She sometimes knows us but other times looks frightened and doesn't know who we are. Sorry for the long post, just needed to vent.