though I know its needed. I feel I am letting her down.sounds so silly.I am realistic that we may not be able to continue and home may be needed but I know I will be sick with guilt the day that happens.We have done alot for her over the last few years and I shouldn't feel so guilty. My sister and I have done everything. The public nurse was of no help but she was replaced and in the last week, the new nurse has organised help-45 minutes 5 mornings a week to start with, a wheelchair in case her legs go quickly, a hospital bed as we need to move downstairs-stairs were becoming too dangerous-one of us was gonna fall, disposable pants as she was having more accidents. Its been alot of change and my mother is feeling the effects as there have been more callers like occupational therapist, home help co ordinator etc. the help is due to start next week, we haven't met carer yet. this year has been fast and we are expecting more decline. Her balance is going, shes more fraill, not talking as much, more infections.Shes just been down, saying her goodbyes, feeling fed up, sick of life, feels she doesn't deserve it.Perhaps another person might be good for her, who knows. I guess its the unknown as well, knowing the stress changes cause but also having a stranger in the house.I feel like I need to have the place clean all the time as they will be here! its silly but caring has such a rollercoaster of emotions.