Mums lived with me my husband and our son whos now grown up and has a family of his own for14yrs the last 4 have been increasingly hard.She started to become different approx 4yrs ago and was diagnosed 2 1/2yrs ago with altzeimers.This is the first year I have been able to get her to go for respite as she has become increasingly reliant for daily living...having had some bad falls.
We have good days and terrible days.On the good ones I feel so guilty at getting help and on the bad ones i feel desperate that i cant cope.I love her dearly but struggle to except that little by little i lose a part of her everyday.When shes in for respite tho i miss her so much and i dont want her to die.But being a aux nurse for dementia care i know whats round the corner and just hopes she does not suffer to long.Basically i feel guilty most of the time especially at xmas.
We have good days and terrible days.On the good ones I feel so guilty at getting help and on the bad ones i feel desperate that i cant cope.I love her dearly but struggle to except that little by little i lose a part of her everyday.When shes in for respite tho i miss her so much and i dont want her to die.But being a aux nurse for dementia care i know whats round the corner and just hopes she does not suffer to long.Basically i feel guilty most of the time especially at xmas.