I'm not really sure how to use this as I am new but my nan has been diagnosed with dementia about a year ago even though she had got it years prior. It's been a struggle dealing with it but I could usually do it. My mother and aunt were her main carers (she's now in a care home) her dementia has gradually gotten worse. I'm just unsure of how I'm feeling I know she isn't my nan anymore only physically and sometimes not even physically cause I don't recognise Her she looks different in the eyes. She was recently sectioned (she's back in care home now) after a traumatic move to the new care home and she just cried to come home with us and then tells us she hates us and wants to die she is 90 years old but other than the dementia nothing is physically wrong with her. I'm finding it very hard to go and visit her and people tell me I'm grieving but im just unsure because I've never grieved before. Is it normal to not want to spend time with them and to have feelings of depression and anxiety over the situation? I'm just lost within it all