For the most part since my mother died I've been ticking over OK - some days better, some days worse, but over the last few days all I seem to want to do is cry (well bawl really). Partly it seems to have been triggered by my daughter going back to college - her last semester and I guess it just hit me that she'll probably never live at home again. I mean I "knew" it before. but I didn't "know" it if you see what I mean. It also made me realise how difficult it must have been for my mother to have said goodbye to me over the years. So it could be grief. On the other hand it was so sudden, so out of the blue, it might be depression. How do you tell the difference? If it's depression I need to see my psychiatrist but if it's grief I need to work through it. You'd think I'd know, wouldn't you, but I don't.